Character Sketc-Day 15(510 words)

Day Fifteen: Step to the absolute edge.

Focus Word - Brink

Song Prompt - Where Is The Edge? by: Within Temptation

In the shadows it awakes the desire
But you know that you can't realize
And the pressure will just keep rising
Now the heat is on

It's too late, there is no way around it
You will see for yourself many times
In the end you will give up the fight
It's inescapable

'Cause you're losing your mind and you sleep
In the heart of the lies

Where is the edge
Of your darkest emotions?
Why does it all survive?
Where is the light
Of your deepest devotions?
I pray that it's still alive

It's the rule that you live by and die for
It's the one thing you can't deny
Even though you don't know what the price is
It is justified

So much more that you've got left to fight for
But it still doesn't change who you are
There is no fear you'll ever give in to
You're untouchable

'Cause you're losing your mind and you sleep
In the heart of the night

Where is the edge
Of your darkest emotions?
Why does it all survive?
Where is the light
Of your deepest devotions?
I pray that it's still alive

You can't stop yourself
Don't want to feel
Don't want to see what you've become

You can't walk away
From who you are
Never give in

Where is the edge
Of your darkest emotions?
Why does it all survive?
Where is the light
Of your deepest devotions?
I pray that it's still alive

Dear Apu

How are you doing? Today was the best day in Wales for me. I went to shopping with Ishaan and I had decadent retail therapy. I bought the mink coat, a beautiful dress which I do not know where I will wear them and amazing stiletto. I am so tired from shopping. Ishaan showed me the whole market and all the special places. We went to the shore and brought some balloons. I was able to walk in white sand. And you know it was totally awesome. I was exhilarated, refreshed and relaxed. I had forgotten totally how it is to revel in the natural beauty. Ishaan’s company was the icing on cake. Ishaan was absolute gentleman. He talked about everything- our common friends and everyone else in the college had settled. We laughed at the local public, some stupid customs. We had pizzas and chocolate truffles (He remembered that I like the most).

I am happy but I everything is colored with the doubts. I still desire him- I still want him with me. I know I need to maintain a distance from him. I can’t give in, I can’t walk on the same road again. But where is the edge of my emotion? Will I ever be able to overcome everything and just be friends him. He seems to want that. But I know it is a lie. I can see him looking towards me, noticing my usual actions with a special attentiveness. I so wanted to fall back to the routine and forget myself but I was tied up. I do not what kind of price I will have to pay for this new emerging madness in me. I do not know where this road will end but I so wish to erase the past. I so wish to walk that road again I wish I was not burdened with my past. Then I could be confident in the     decision I will take. But for now, I am so torn up.

I do not wish to meet him again. I know I am standing at the brink. If I took a step, I will again fall in the abyss of love. It will be so much easier. I know you will say then why not? Because past will always hold us down .I will always remember that he did not try to contact me. I will not forget those hours of despair. Ishaan says that there is a reason for what he does and he just wants to be friends with me. But honestly, I do not think that it is possible to be friends with hi again? I believe our feelings are still the same-at least mine are. I am no more sure about anyone else. I do not know how to refuse him. But I am sure I will find a way to maintain a distance. I will, rather need to find a way to move away from this brink, this edge. I cannot, will not fall again.

Hoping for a divine solution,

Trish.